I feel bad

I feel really bad right now...
not the sick-bad but bad-bad :(

i really want it off my chest somehow, but its hard

the person who i trust the most [with my secrets or thoughts or whatever] is not online so...i want to burst out crying...but that person will not let me? i think?

he'll just end up saying very deep words that i somehow understand at the same time i dont understand

he's just my age, and he has this, what i call it, infinite wisdom or something :))

he's way smarter than i am :)) but what the heck, there's always filipino ;)

shhh :-$ hope that person doesnt see this or he'll end up laughing at me :))